With tears in my eyes, and great sorrow in my heart, I have to say "Adieu" to you, Abp. Gregory!
As you already know, I do not recognise your moral or ecclesiastical authority anymore, and as of yesterday, 1 October 2005,I have removed myslef from under your omophorion. I will later explain the Scriptural and Canonical violations which you have committed and which have forced me to leave you, after intense soul-searching and agony. I have loved you with all my heart and believed in you for the last four years. Many know this and have derided me for it, startting with my beloved wife Michelle. I have loved you with all sincerity and purity of heart, because I was thirsting for Christ and His Orthodoxy. I was longing to have the reassurance that you were a true shepherd, and that you loved your sheep and cared for their souls. I wanted to disbelieve all the accusations of your enemies, which I heard from all quarters. I have always given you the benefit of the doubt, and have been relishing the idea that I did not have to look for a confessing spiritual father any more. I have loved you with all my heart, mind, soul, and strength, because I believed you loved Jesus Christ our Lord, God, and Savior. I have supported you financially and morally beyond anyone's imagination. I have laid my life down for you, Abp. Gregory. I have made a fool of myself defending you against the many attacks that were hurled at you from all directions.
God, however, in His great mercy and providence, has opened my unworthy eyes to see things as they are in reality. The tragedy surrounding your trampling on the soul of Sbn. Nathaniel has been a catalyst that has revealed the truths about many other hidden flaws in your beliefs, behavior, and decisions, and has made me rethink your whole history. The crusts have fallen off from my eyes through God's grace and intervention. Very tragically, my multiple and repeated supplications and exhortations to you for a fair, just, and God-pleasing resolution of the crisis surrounding Fr. Peter's shameful jailing of Sbn. Nathaniel, have fallen on deaf ears. I have felt deceived and betrayed, and had to come to terms with the heart-wrenching sorrow that inevitably comes from blaming myself for being too trusting, naive, and lacking in discernment. I still want to thank you for all the good and true teachings that you gave me. I have benefited from following the traditional orthodox way of life, which I have learned from you, after leaving the Antiochians and the OCA. I am grateful to God for all the good and the bad. For our Lord uses all things for the benefit of those who love Him.
I pray that you would one day stop from your restlessness, and rethink the path that you have forged for youself. I hope that you will one day repent of your delusion that there are no more true bishops left in the world other than you and the Lamians. I pray that you would be one day reconciled to the Church in humility and love. For he who is the greatest among us should be more like Christ, and humble himself, even unto death, and lay his life down for those whom he loves.
My soul is very sorrowful, and a big part of my life for the last four years has just died. God is however merciful, and will guide me to the green pastures of Orthodoxy with the Holy Synod of his eminence, the venerable Metropolitan Vitaly.
I have loved you very much Abp. Gregory. I cannot however, partake of your numerous Scriptural and Canonical violations, and I cannot follow the multitude into evil, for I will have to give an account for my soul on that dreaded Day to the Terrible Judge.
I will still love you and pray for you, that you may be reconciled to the Church, for the salvation of your soul, and those with you.
Very sorrowfully,
Sbn. Jerjis/Dr. Alajaji