An Open letter to the Bishops of the ROCOR (L) from a layperson of the OCA
Vladyka's Bless,
I am a young man who was born into and raised in the OCA. Due to my inattention and indifference to Church matters during the years of my youth, I never sought or learned the truth concerning the jurisdictional divisions within the Russian Church. Recently, over the past couple of years I sought and recieved this knowledge. For a long while I had been fed up with the various lies, compromises and betrayals that I saw coming from the official representatives of the different Local Orthodox Churches, including the OCA. As human beings I think that naturally we are repulsed by falsehood and love truth. So since I was encountering falsehood almost everywhere I looked in the Orthodox world, I began to search for those who spoke the truth, people who could spiritually enlighten me and give my heart what it thirsted for-the truth.
I found what I was looking for when I encountered the writings of people such as Fr. Seraphim Rose, Vladyka Averky, Metropolitan Philaret, Professor Andreev and the Russian New Martyrs. I also learned alot from reading the Church fathers, as well as from a number of recent holy people who were not part of the Russian Orthodox Church-although they certainly were Orthodox.
One of the things that struck me and has caused me lots of pain and confusion is the fact that according to the Church teachings-schism is Graceless. Having been brought up in the OCA and having learned the truth about how the OCA twice seperated itself from the ROCOR and received an uncanonical autocephaly from the Mp; I began to question why I should belong to a jurisdiction which is in schism. What would be my responsibility before God if I remained in a schismatic Church organization? How would this affect my relationship with God? Would this hinder me from recieving Divine Grace? Questions like these began to torment me.
So I have made up my mind to leave and to go to a jurisdiction where my conscience would be at rest. But the question then became "where?".
I could not go to the MP, since according to the traditional position of the ROCOR and according to the testimony of numerous New Martrys it is a uncanonical creation of Stahlin, is schismatic in its origins, is a subtle continuation of the Living church, and there is reason to question whether or not Grace is present in its Mysteries. Of course some of you disagree, but their is reason to have serious doubts about the MP and therefore about the so-called autocephaly of the OCA.
So, out of the Russian jurisdictions, the only choice left was the ROCOR. This was my desire. The ROCOR has always spoken the truth concerning the situation in the Russian Church, she has condemned the ecumenical heresy, she has stood by the confessors and martrys, she has been one with the Russian Catacomb Church etc. etc. Her representaives have spoken the truth-and I love this and this what I had been searching for. But when I look at what is now happening within the ROCOR, the split and confusing situation with Metropolitan Vitaly-about which it is impossible for me to know the truth due to their being so many conflicting stories, about the MP suddenly becoming canonical and not schismatic, about the voices of some bishops against ROCOR's Old Calendarist bretheren, about ROCOR potentially being about to unite not only with Moscow but with all of World Orthodoxy (which may lead to falling under your own anathema); considering all this I have to ask "why should I join ROCOR"? When the truth they have always stood for is departing from them? Should I join ROCOR so I can then be potentially forced to leave it, if it joins with Moscow?
Of course, not everyone will go along with a compromised union with the MP. I thank those bishops who stand up for the truth and I hope that someday I maybe able to enter your flock, providing you withstand the temptation to join the Patriarchate.
So I have no options for the time being. I could leave for a non Russian jurisdiction, but then I would have to face the temptations of modernism, ecumenism and falsehood-even more than I have to in the OCA. That would not give rest to my soul. I'd be happy to join with the "Synod in Resistance" but they have no parishes around here. I could not join any of the Churches (Matthewites, ROCIE, etc.) which claim World Orthodoxy to be Graceless-since I view this as a false teaching which potentially seperates one from the Church. So I am lost, confused and very sad.
Who's to blame for this situation in Orthodoxy? The innovators, the blaspheming ecumenists, the Sergianist schismatics etc. etc. All of these have caused division, heresy and temptations to appear in the Orthodox Church. Along with some others, the ROCOR has been a major force against all this and their still are many who do take a stand against all this within ROCOR. But what about those who do not take a stand for truth and who seek compromise and twist and distort truth and history to fit their agendas? Are they perhaps also responsible for the confusion in the Orthodox world and in my soul? Hasn't their agenda already caused enough schisms within the ROCOR, with more to follow? Think about the pain and distress in the souls of your flocks and clergy due to this move towards Moscow? Think about how many people there may be, who like me are seeking the truth and the true Russian Church and then realize they cannot enter it and are forced to remain in a schismatic Church organization? Think about how people have been scandalized by this new direction and have left the ROCOR for what could potentially be called Orthodox sects-will you have to answer to God for scandalizing them and leading them in their weakness to make such moves? Think about IF Metropolitan Philaret, Vladyka Averky, the Russian New Martrys and others were right about the MP-then you will be leading your flock potentially out of the Church and into a state of Gracelessness? I know none of you wants to be responsible for this...
Therefore I beg of all of you to please take a stand for truth, for Orthodoxy and for you flocks. Even if you consider me spiritually weak and my understanding infirm about these matters (although I hold the traditional opinion of your Church and of many Saints), then please consider that St. Paul commands the strong not to scandalize the weak-even if the actions that cause the scandel are not sinful. Hasn't enough scandel, division and confusion been caused by this move towards Moscow? Why not end it all? It is in your power to end it or continue it. Please do what is right and please stop hurting us "little ones".
Asking you blessings, prayers, and forgiveness (if I have been sinfully bold in this letter),
A layman of the OCA