[....I would recommend ST.THEOPHAN the RECLUSE-The Path to Salvation....and remember to Trust in God only,ask him from your heart to place that Spiritual Person of Guidance in your reach... Trust GOD,Clean House,And Help Others ]
Actually, I have been reading St.Theophan the Recluse, The Path to Salvation.
It is so very far beyond my level at the present time.
It takes baptism and communion as granted for
the starting point in developing one's relationship with God,
and I can't even get my foot into that particular door at present.
I am coming out of a state of the greatest darkness into the light.
(see :
http://euphrosynoscafe.com/forum/viewto ... 6&start=49
for my story, if you're interested.)
I find books meant for children more accessible to me.
Not from a standpoint of literacy, but because they include
things that more elevated works take for granted,
Like the various terms used in services, and how to conduct
one's self in church.
I quite agree with the rest of your post. It occurred to me today that if
a person were ready, and worthy of a spiritual father, he would have one,
even if he lived on a desert island. If he were an unworthy person,
he could live on Mt. Athos for his entire life, and never find a spiritual
director.
I will continue going to services, and I will pray more diligently.
It's not for me to decide of myself to enter Orthodoxy,
but for God to show me the path I must follow.
Please pray for me.