An Appeal to HOCNA

[Nathaniel Kapner]

"DO LORD accept this my offering to You for Fr. Panteleimon, as an acceptable sacrifice on Fr. Panteleimon's behalf. Amen." Sub Deacon Nathaniel Kapner

AUTHOR - Sub Deacon Nathaniel Kapner, who was a member of The Holy Transfiguration Monastery, Boston MA, from 1996-2002.

AN APPEAL TO FATHER PANTELEIMON OF THE HOLY TRANSFIGURATION MONASTERY, BOSTON MA.

Father Panteleimon is no ordinary man. This is obvious upon a first encounter with him. One is initially impressed with a particular energy that emanates through his entire physiology, beginning with his eyes. His eyes for a splitting-moment dart and pierce deep into your psyche. Then they relax. You sense that 'something' has happened to you. But you are not quite sure what it was.

I first met Father Pantelimon in 1991. Since I was living in Boston, I had heard about the monastery and was eager to visit it. A monk greeted me at the door and brought me into the office to meet Fr. Panteleimon. I recognized immediately that I was in the presence of an extraordinary man.

I told him about my Jewish background and his face immediately brightened. This established a bond between us, that, in spite of the pain I have caused him since we separated in June of 2002, has never been severed.

I joined HTM in 1996. It did not take me long to realize that Fr. Panteleimon's knowledge of Orthodoxy was unmatched by anyone living today. He could move from so many different topics of Orthodoxy so quickly in such a compressed period of time, that one became dizzy.

If you began a conversation with him such as, "I just called my mother," this would invariably spring-off a topic about Orthodoxy.

He might respond, "Ohhhh your mother? Oh, (and he would make the sign of the Cross), what a Mother we have in our Theotokos, a Jewess, just like your mother! The Panagia was a daughter of Abraham, for didn't the Theotokos pray, "He hath helped His servant Israel, in remembrance of His mercy, as He spake to our fathers, to Abraham, and to his seed for evermore?"

Then he would discourse on how all Orthodox Christians are the seed of Abraham by faith, and how the Church inherits the promises of the covenants made to the Jews.Then he would philosophize how the Jew has no cultural inheritance, such as the Greeks have with their Hellenic culture, but the Jews are without a culture apart from the greatest possession of all - the holy Scriptures, both the Old and New Testament.

While you are trying to grasp the profundity of what he is expressing, he is now discoursing on how the Greeks eschewed their pagan legacy and adopted the Hebraic world-view of God, Creation, and the meaning of man's destiny.

By this time, one has to catch one's breath. For now he is beginning to illustrate the import of all of this by the life of a saint. Whew!

He used to love to tell me about all the saints who were converted-Jews and the accounts of their lives: New Martyr Alexander Jacobson, St Epiphanios of Cyprus, St Romanos the Melodist, St Paisios Velichovsky, (his mother was a Jewess), and many others. At Pascha he would always come over to me during the services and ask me to exclaim out loud, "Mochiah Qam!" (Christ is Risen). He would break into a huge smile and nod his head up and down in his habitual way, showing that he was pleased.

I often would drive Fr. Panteleimon on various errands. I loved being with him on these drives, for I would simply drink in all of his knowledge on so many different Orthodox topics. I suppose I would not be far off the mark, (and I do not think anyone who met him only once would say otherwise), that Fr. Panteleimon is a genius. His charismatic personality combined with his exhaustive knowledge of Orthodoxy and his depth of understanding of the issues surrounding the Orthodox Church, all add up to - "he's a genius."

The one thing that Fr. Panteleimon loved more than anything else was being in "Church." He simply loved to worship with his community. You saw the excitement on his face during Liturgy knowing that we were doing the most wonderful thing that a man could ever do. Church for Fr. Panteleimon was not just a gathering for prayer, Church for him was 'an Event.'

And you really understood this whenever he was away from the monastery. Church was just not the same without him.For when Fr Panteleimon was with us in Church, we all had the sense that we were doing something 'momentous,' 'historical,' performing 'a prophecy' for future generations.

And 'a prophecy' for future generations is just we of the Old Calendar Jurisdictions are in the greatest need of today. I have been asking myself lately, "Wouldn't it be nice if there was a leader amongst us who could 'intelligently' call us into union with one another?" And every time
I ask myself this question, the darting and piercing, penetrating eyes of Fr. Panteleimon appear before me.

Something could happen to all of us and we would all know what it is, if the likes of Fr. Panteleimon would again appear as the prominent spokesman for our cause.

And so, I CALL UPON YOU FATHER PANTELEIMON to resurface amongst us now, at this critical juncture, that through your leadership, a new day of unity would dawn for the divided Traditionalist Orthodox Churches.

Sub Deacon Nathaniel Kapner
Sepember 5/18/2005
Prophet Zechariah, father of the Forerunner/
Prince Gleb the Passion-bearer

[Nathaniel Kapner]

Dear Metropolitan Ephrem,

Evloison Despota!

I have tried numerous times to contact you, in the hopes that you would respond by contacting me in return. Now I make another attempt -- by posting this personal letter to you in this Public Forum of Traditionalist Orthodox Christians known as "Euprosynos Cafe."

I begin by stating that I have the deepest respect for you - not only for you personally, but also for your tenacious commitment to Holy Orthodoxy and your sacrificial service for the cause of Christ's One Holy, Catholic, and Apostolic Church.

How many times you and I sat together in the very early morning, discussing the Holy Fathers, their teachings, and all that it meant for the cause of The Orthodox Church in present day! Surely you haven't forgotten those special moments, and how it formed an indissoluble bond between us.

I think of you often, especially now that I have been extricated from your fellow former-monk's clutches, Abp Gregory of Dormtion Skete, CO. I think of you, in the hopes that you and I could be friends again, and work together again in the service of Christ's Holy Orthodox Church.

And why couldn't this happen again? I am prepared to have some "humbling" discussions with you, admitting that I had been wholly uncharitable in my actions against you and the HTM community.

I even ask you now to, "please forgive me, Despota, I was wrong, I am ashamed of myself for acting in such an unchristian manner." And when we do talk, (I AM hopeful), I am prepared to confess in specific detail, all that I have sinned against you and the HTM community.

Why then, cannot I make this appeal to you, this day, September 6th OS, 2005, as we BOTH commemorate "The Miracle of the Archangel Michael at Colossae," to come forward and work with all the Traditionalist Orthodox Churches for unity amongst us?

The 'Struggle Against Ecumenism' is at our doors. A great capitulation is nigh before us with the imminent MP/ROCOR union. The blood of the Holy New Martyrs of Russia is about to be shed once again by the living ghost of Metropolitan Sergios Staragorodsky. The souls of them under the altar who were slain by the Sergianists for the Testimony which they held against the Soviet church are crying out once again, "How long O Lord dost thou not avenge our blood on them that dwell on the earth?"

I beg of you, Your Grace, to begin then, by making an Initial Posting to this "Euprosynos Cafe Discussion Forum,"stating your willingness as an esteemed hierarch, to step forward and enter into meaningful dialogue with your OC hierarch brothers

If you do, (and I believe you will), the entire company of The Newly-Martyred Saints of Russia will honor your courage and commitment to avenge their blood and their holy cause.

"Oh Supreme Commander Michael of the Hosts of the Heavens on High, intercede in our behalf, that the destruction of Christ's Holy Orthodox Church, begun in 1917, will be averted once again by you, as you did at Colossae, through the courage and commitment of Metropolitan Ephrem and of all of our holy Traditionalist Orthodox Church hierarchs. Amen."

I remain, Your Eminence, your unworthy servant and supplicant,

Sub Deacon Nathaniel Kapner
September 6/19, 2005
The Miracle of the Archangel Michael at Colossae in Chonae

[spiridon]

So Nathaniel you call upon The Panteleimon(and you said ,you have caused him alot of grief-I thought you earlier said you were in 2 cults and you stated in your own writing that HOCNa was one of them.is Panteleimon one of its leaders?) and now you want to call upon him to lead us ,huh? o.k. seems sad that you would turn to risk our lives,so that you could be happy...............you cant call upon a human to be our superior- Nathaniel please remember that WE all have a leader already and you too,can join us...let me start by reminding you or introducing you to our Lord and Saviour JESUS CHRIST-for he is our King of Kings.......................no one else can take this title

[Nathaniel Kapner]

For the sins listed below, I beg your forgiveness, Fr. Panteleimon, I am sorry I hurt you so grievously. If you can in time, dear Yeranda, please forgive me,for I cannot even show my face before you for what I, Milton L. Kapner, aka Sub Deacon Brother Nathaniel, have committed against you:

1. For the sin of my active participation in Abp.Gregory of Dormition Skete Monastery's www.hocna.info, in 2004/5, I beg your forgiveness, Fr. Panteleimon.

2. For posting the articles as former novice Zakarias: "Behind the Facade,""Testimony Against Father Isaac," "Nicholas Liberas," on www.hocna.info, in2004/5, I beg your forgiveness, Fr. Panteleimon.

3. For though I posted the factual articles on www.hocna.info, with the intent to protect unsuspecting people from spiritual harm - for the sin of my vengefulintentions to inflict injury on you, the HTM community, and the HOCNA organization, in 2004/5, I beg your forgiveness, Fr. Panteleimon.

4. For master-minding the mass mailings advertising www.hocna.info, and affixing your picture on the inserted flyer, in 2005, I beg your forgiveness, Fr. Panteleimon.

5. For going to the Brookline Police and filing an Assault & Battery chargeagainst your Abbot Fr Isaac in 2002, I beg your forgiveness, Fr. Panteleimon.

6. For taking your Abbot Fr. Isaac to court for Assault & Battery in 2002/3, I beg your forgiveness, Fr. Panteleimon.

For all of the aforementioned sins that I, Milton L. Kapner, aka Sub Deacon Brother Nathaniel, have committed against you, I beg your forgiveness, dear Fr. Panteleimon.

I am so sorry for what I have done to you. I weep and lament for these grievous aforementioned sins that I have committed against you in your venerable old age. If you can in time, I beg of you, dear Yeranda, please forgive me.

I am now going to print this confession, sign and date it, and mail it to you at:

ATT: Fr. Panteleimon
c/o The Holy Transfiguration Monastery
278 Warren St
Brookline MA 02445-5997

And I am mailing a carbon copy to:

Deacon Fr. Nikolai Stanoscheck [ROAC(V)]
Owner - Euphrosynos Cafe Discussion Forum
Colorado Springs, CO

Signed,

Milton L Kapner
Sub Deacon Nathaniel Kapner
September 6/19, 2005
Miracle of Archangel Michael at Collossae in Chonae

[michigan]

Are you saying that those allegations of abuse are untrue all those people are lying? How is it a sin to warn people about abuse?

[Priest Siluan]

Dear Br Nathaniel:

I hope you don't fall in "Illusion", forgetting a Cult for another, a Cult leader for another. It is not good idea

In Christ

Priest Siluan

[StephenG]

I, a Christian Orthodox, met Father Panteleimon over 30 years ago. Yes, he appeared impressive. However much has happened since.

I suggest, but fear you will not listen, and that you carefulling consider the advice offered you by the two previous posters. It is clear that in offering caution that they care for spiritual welfare.

I wish you well