I was wondering if anyone can offer any advice. For the last 13 or 14 years, I've contemplated living the monastic life. In fact, for a couple years I did, and I was very happy there but I left. I then spent a couple months at St. Anthony's in Arizona before spending three months on Athos. I was advised, at the time, to go back into the world and wait a few years to see if the desire for the monastic life remained. Well, it has. I would like to go back, but I am at a loss on where to go. I am considering going back to Athos, but do not know which monasteries I should consider, besides visiting every one of them, but I don't know if there are monasteries I should avoid (due to ecumenism or because of the confusion surrounding Elder Ephraim). Another issue I have is I am an only child and while my mother fully supports me and my dad is indifferent (he doesn't like it, but he would never stand in my way), I still think about the fact that I am all my parents have. It will be very hard on my mother to not see me again (though she still fully supports me going into a monastery), but also there is no one to take care of my parents when they get older. A part of me would like to at least be in a monastery where she could still visit me once a year or so.
I ask for any advice.