JamesR wrote:This is something I kind of have trouble understanding. None of this existential poetic stuff like "beauty" makes much sense to me. I tend to see everything through Scholastic eyes and a rationalist western mind--so abstract concepts like "beauty" are something I have trouble understanding. That, combined with my spiritual problems, makes it hard for me. I don't get how I can appreciate a woman's beauty without resorting to lustfulness.
For this reason, it is imperative that we practice strict custody of the senses by carefully guarding our eyes, ears, and the senses of touch, taste, and smell. It is very important to guard our fingers and that computer mouse while surfing the net. If at any times our thoughts are not of God, then we need to fall on our faces, return to Christ with tears, repent, and then get up and praise God again and again. It is only by getting up and continuing the struggle that we shall win the crown. As soon as we start blaming others, making excuses, and struggling less, then we are giving into the devil.
I am praying for you. Do not give up.